Oh dear, where did the time go? It’s been a while since I checked in here. But life has been a little bit of a roller-coaster lately and so much has happened. I got a new job. Summer is here. It’s almost Christmas. The year is almost over. But I’m excited. I feel like life is getting better. Like I’m moving forward.
I feel excited. For a new year. For what life has in front of me. It’s a nice feeling. The feeling of going in the right direction.
Today I’m having a day off. I have been to the gym. Picked up the weeks groceries (and they even added chocolate for my pick-up order, it made me so happy. It’s like they know me from what I usually order and gave me the healthier option) and now I’m laying in the couch going through stuff for work. Yesterday we put up the few Christmas decorations we have. I said “if we don’t even try to celebrate Christmas here, we will never get used to it”. It’s weird to celebrate Christmas in the middle of summer, but we just need to change our mindset.
Yesterday I had a little bit of a emotional breakdown, and today is no better. Everything just feel so hard. I know this year has been tough on everyone so somehow it feels like it’s not ok to be sad, that I need to be grateful for everything that I do have, to not complain. But sometimes we all just need to let go for a moment, to let oneself be vulnerable. This year has been tough on a personal level as well as everything else that is happening in the world and I feel like I’m walking in mud. Constantly two steps forward, one step back. I am trying to trust the process, and I know that everything will be fine. But some days I feel like giving up. The thing with being an adult though, is that giving up is not an option. No one will do the job for you. So the only option is to keep on trying and believe, that tomorrow will be better.